hari ibu? . _ .

BECAUSE IM ASIAN, HAHA

By the title event : Hari Ibu, you would think of a quiet and polite event. I know, Im so naive, thinking that everything goes with its connotation- well the world isn.

From the beginning, mi mom hesitated to let me play. But I kept on going on, telling her that it has been long since I played in front of an audience- and mi stage fever IS flashing back on me again. That was the only thing that mattered to me: My stage fever. The thought of it being in the embassy DID bother me, but I didn thinkk that it would be that significant.

Oh, I've ruined it.

Since we've fnished the study group late, I dropped Saher off at Cania's apartment late. So of course, I missed the attendance check. Thinking that it was too late, I was only worried about the performance- who will be there?
The best memoir of a concert to me was the ITB gathering, and that was what kept me in calmness.
So" , when we've reached the embassy I found dhe3 and sat bhind her. Nearly all of the people I saw were those.. people. And damn it was so crowded, we stayed in the "Serba Guna" room which was.. rather too small?
And wow, the atmosphere was.. unsuitable. The stage was full of band equipments, the only thing that notifies you a clue about Hari Ibu was the red and white banner at the back.
So, maybe some of you people find singing women with electric guitars normal- I find it hillarious, HAHA. But by implying you the fact that there are men [half the audience wer male], I find it inappropiate.

Yeahh the voice was nice and yeahh I see I see they can play instruments. But acting all.. u know.. when theyr married and all, I dont find it funny anymore.
Oh, maybe u think omg I'm so lame- well, if it takes that, then I must admit that I would prefer to be lame. *just to tell u the truth
I tried calling Marsya just to get mi attention away from stage, but she didn pick up.
As the show continued on, mi stage fever gradually disappears and a new fear slapped me- what about mi parents?
Oh, of course they hated it, what else can I expect; but we were waiting for my turn to go and we couldn go home yet until I either play, or not play at all.

Songs after songs, mi turn still hasn come up. In the end, Tnt Susi told me and dhe3 to ask the woman for the schedule. Oh, it was hard finding her whenever we wanted to. Worried with the embarassment I would face if the person DID forget to put me into the list, I also had a little wish right inside me that I don't even need to play anymore. These kinds of atmosphere creep the hell out of me.
Uncomfortable with the situation, all I could do was nag dhe3 out of it [sorry yo dhe HAHAHA].Bothered with mi anxiety,I waited for the woman to pop up. She didn't. But Tnt. Susi DID eventually talked to the pink woman.

She was like "dari tadi tuh sbtulnya ditungguin,, cmn ngga dtg" jdi nya dlewatin". Oh yeah crap, that means we've waited for nothing. Dhe3 has already performed first and now the last band [pak dubes' band . _ . ] was playing. Mi mom was like "ngga usah ya teh," and I went whatever- I didn care anymore.
I thought I would be angry, but I knew it was mi fault in the first place so I didn. I felt kind of relieved in fact, at least dhe3 played.

currently insane

BECAUSE IM ASIAN, HAHA

GYAHAHA IM FINALLY BACK
NOOOOOOOO I DONT WANA BE AT HOME YETT

BUT YEAAHH I LIKE MI ROOM AND ALL
NO I LOVE YOU MI ROOM
DONT TAKE THIS THE WRONG WAY ROUND
*gila*

LETS GO BACK THEN
PRETEND THER IS NO SCHOOL MWAHAHAHA

NOOOO I DONT WANA REMEMBER SCHOOL
OH NOOO IVE RMEMBERED IT ALREADY!!
OH WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO

LETS CANCEL OUT THE IGS!!
NOO BUT I DONT WANT MARSYA'S TEACHERS
OH I WISH THEYD JUST FAIL THE PROGRAM OR STH

I WANA BREAK UP RIGHT NOW NOW NOW
*... oook*
WAI LETS SLEEP
LETS FALL DEEPER IN A SLEEP, THEN OUR DREAMS BECOME FAKE REALITY
-I WAKE, I HOPE

*currently writing this bcz I just read hamzah's blog or sthh,, or sth- and it seems unhappy and emo and not happy and all,
:D
and yeahh,, that makes me miss abu dhabi where everybody laughed
HAHAHAH
*

home

BECAUSE IM ASIAN, HAHA

You cannot believe how the trip was better than I could expect [exaggeration].
The first 2 days, yeahh, quite neutral- Rifky and Revin still felt awkward and it has been a time since I've played much with ghabot en all.
Idk wth happened then, but it was great.

Haha, too bad you twins get t come later on, you get t miss half the trip. It was always a full house when Galih and the twins came in. I also went t th KBRI at idul adha and met some of Rifky's friends. Idk how many I met, and idk how many of them said their names, at the time I could only make out : ila, ameera en caitleen [however u spell it]. When a couple of days passed, I met some more [which aren close t rifky and are pretty young - year 7s ] .

Rifky seems t be a gentleman back in Abu Dhabi XD. Ghabot was like "tuh tuh ila nya indra diambil Rifky" when we first saw her, I ddn kno anyth abt ndra, but ka icha said t me ther ar a lot of iLa's in his facebook . HAHA.

Rifky en Revin were fun gyahaha, it HAS been quite a time so i ddn kno how they would react to stufs. We all watched a horror movie while waiting for the twins and damn, none of us except ghabot wasn creeped out HAHAHA. And so, I had many substitutes of Bs. Hihihi.
Oh", and u kno. On mi first day staying over in Abu Dhabi, you should see what I had to face half asleep bfore i had mi first shower- I dddn take th picture, but ther was this blue paper and it had all these random words on it; then in the bottom right hand corner was this big round dot with some red lines which i think was intended t be a crystal- and the writing :

You are being recorded through this hole you THINK is fake.

and i went " ..." , i mean- what was I supposed to do with it XD XD .

At Global Village much later on, me and Ka Icha got lost- hahah it was hillarious. Going through the same crowd over and over again, in the end, the boys found us instead.